That’s an odd question, I know. I had no idea what it meant myself — yet here I am, realizing that I needed to be ”unserpentined”.
Let me explain:
Last night I had a one of those symbolic dreams, filled with hidden messages. They often come after paying my evening-gratitude, especially if I need to ventilate or ask questions to Universe before light goes off.
Anyway…
In the dream there was a woman, engaged to a really absent and dark-minded man. His friend was the one spending most time with her, helping and guiding her. He was definitely a better match, a soulmate of some sort, but he kept his distance out of loyalty to his friend.
There was also a scene with the woman going to a train station. An older man took notice of her, and tried to get her attention. But she turned around and ran away, hindering him from reaching her.
Suddenly, a festival appeared in town. There was fireworks, clowns and everything. Yet instead of joining, the woman was about to leave town with the friend. They left the fun celebration together, but still with the feeling of being distant from each other.
Just before I woke up, I heard a voice saying: “Do you want to know why they’re leaving? Because he’s a serpentine.”
The Meaning of the Dream
It didn’t take long to understand who the participants in the dream was.
The woman was obviously me. Misled, emotionally tied to a destructive dark shadow, whose mission seems to keep me in his cave, dwelling in misery and loneliness.
The absent fiancee: That is obviously my Shadow-self. I have been battling him for a long time, but the last few months his attacks has been different, heavier. He even took the shape of a man, I’ve seen him from time to time in visions and dreams. Once he even sent me a song (im clairaudient, and receive many messages from my spirit guides in music), introducing himself as Sebastian. It sounds crazy, I know, but my Shadow-self is desperate, as I have grown so much stronger for him to hold locked in.
The friend in the dream represents the one I’m meant to be with — my twin soul. Someone who longs to reach me, but can’t as long as the darkness holds power over my mindset and choices, using fears and anxiety as tools.
And the old man? That is my Higher Self. He has appeared to me before in human form, always as a wise older man. The first time he came to me, I truly thought I had met God. That’s how intense his energy was. But running away from him in this dream suggested that I have stopped listening to my intuition, to my truth. Enhancing the feeling that I am trapped in darkness.
So what is the meaning of the Serpentine?
I wrote down the dream, then googled what a Serpentine really is. All I found was a music group, and that didn’t feel right to me. It was like 3 am in the morning, but before I fell back to sleep, I asked Universe to explain further the meaning of the serpentine.
There was a new dream, I don’t recall it very well, only a woman in a dirty wedding dress looking at me. I’m pretty sure she was supposed do portrait me — because I know that love won’t arrive until I defeated my Shadow-self.
Anyway… While she looked at me, a voice said: ”A serpentine is someone who is far from the light at the moment. But it doesn’t have to stay that way.”
And now it started making sense! To make sure I connected to Kora — my spirit guide and sort of other half. She confirmed it, saying: “You are caught in darkness right now. The shadow has a grip on you, but you can change it. You created the veil, so we cannot do anything about it. Only you can lift the veil, setting yourself free.”
She was right.
I’ve allowed my shadow to take control lately, it has been like returning to my dark night of the soul, which frustrated me a bit. After years of shadow work, I wish I resisted it better. But then on the other hand… Frustration only feeds the darkness, so I needed to rethink. Kora is right, I know what I must do to ”unserpentine” myself.
I smile a bit when she laughed, took her arm around my waist and kissed me on the forehead, while saying: ”Only you can make the concept of the Serpentine and being entangled with darkness, amusing. Unserpentine yourself, indeed.”
”I will totally fight it”, I told her. She assured me that she was well aware of that.
So how do I ”Unserpentine” myself then?
Well, there are a few things I can do:
- Ground myself. I usually find myself at the beach, almost every day now. I do it both for exercise, but mainly for the wind to carry out my dark thoughts and energies to the sea. I have noticed that the voice communicating to me then isn’t always Kora, but actually my Higher Self. So that is brilliant! <3
- Exercise better. Some website said that exercise is great for releasing stress and endorphines etc.
- A healthy diet. With a healthy diet comes better energy and a better sense of care for the self. I need to care for my body as well as my mind, and a healthy diet is essential for that. In my case, its to not eating to much sugar.
- Expanding my network. It will do me good meeting new people, even if I have wonderful friends around me. And that is interesting, actually – because I googled to find activities in Malmö after my Serpentine-insight, but what came up was a website for making friends. It was for free, so I added my name and phone number. Only 1 hour later I got a ping, that they had found me a friend. She was my age + from Paraguay. We met up, and she was LOVELY!! She was soooo happy I was spiritual too, as she could relate to all I spoke off. We were truly a match made in heaven. Universe sure knows how to send them when you ask nicely…. XD
- Be aware of my mindset. Sometimes the dark thoughts and frustration comes sneaking in, without me even knowing it. I need to be aware and shift it before my manipulative Shadow-self gets his claws into me.
So you see! There is a few things to be done to unserpentine myself! And as Kora said, it doesn’t even have to take a long time.
To sum it up:
Right now, I have a serpentine holding me in darkness, yes. But awareness changes everything. And I will do better with all of it, including visiting nature and a new hobby (in my case, making use of my now properly working sewing machine).
But most of all! I will work better to not worry and stress about an uncertain future. Live for the day, not for the desire of a happy tomorrow.
If i succeed with this, I know it will come soon soon soon: that light and love and joy!
How about you?
Do you recognize yourself? How it is with losing sight of the light, or feeling stuck in your own shadow?
If so, know this: it happens to all of us. Growth isn’t linear. Sometimes we must face the darkness to finally release it.
I’m choosing to find my way back.
One grounded step at a time. <3
